Can't. Sleep. As. Usual.

Despite one good night of continuous sleep this week, I have once again blown it by foregoing my nap. It is after midnight and I'm dreadfully tired, but I just can't rest. One reason is that I fear getting too relaxed and not hearing the alarm clock. We need more alarm clocks. So, I won't put on the nature CD in case I don't hear the alarm clock.

Mike was asleep within four minutes of hitting the pillow. It would've been three, but I had to know whether it was Edith or Pepper running in the saucer. (The girls are on his side of the bed.)

Things on my mind:

• Sleep
• Do I have nerve damage from wearing a "least of all evils" bra instead of a "properly fitting but not comfortable unless you stand up straight and weigh 100 pounds less" bra? I think the big dead area on my back where I can barely feel fingernails is telling me something.
• Am I ever going to be awake enough to go to Sunflower Market, where vine-ripe tomatoes are 99 cents/pound this week?
• Am I going to get my committee paperwork finished, especially now that the district people have decided we all have to do more paperwork? I'm just always so tired and end up using my prep time to make more worksheets and check schoolwide daily attendance over and over to see who's likely to show up for my last period.
• Am I going to get some materials in the mail that I promised to a textbook company? Again, always too tired.
• Am I going to mail those photos to my aunt soon? (Hi Aunt Donna. I have your photos, but they can't seem to jump in this envelope by themselves. Weird!)
• Will I manage to renew my teaching license next week? Like I meant to do last week? The one that expires less than two weeks after break ends?
• When am I going to get the oil changed?
• When am I going to clean out the car so I can face the people who vac your car when you get your oil changed?
• When am I going to shampoo the car so I can drive barefoot without getting "blackheel"?
• When am I going to shampoo the carpet at home?
• Does the refrigerator need defrosting? Was that smell really coming from the cheese? What if it comes back?
• Should I try an expensive new moisturizer so the kids will stop accusing me of being silly/wishfully lying when I say I'm 38?
• Will I ever use the moisturizer I have... or at least use it more than once a week, and on those days at least follow the instructions correctly?
• Will we ever get around to decorating the tree?
• Where does all the stuff come from?
• Why doesn't the American work ethic value longer holidays?
• How bad is the new Daisy on the Dead Like Me movie going to be?
• Is J.K. Rowling a communist?
• Am I going to be one of those people whose (sometimes) infected wisdom teeth kill them?
• How are we going to get that one track light bulb replaced without having to mess with maintenance people?
• Was the one good stapler hidder in my desk really stolen, or is it buried under the debris that I keep saying I'll reorganize tomorrow?
• Why do the kids steal so much?
• How sad is it when a student excitedly asks if the class can have voluntary Secret Santa, but five minutes later the project is abandoned because everyone realizes that too many people would cheat and not do it?
• Do the neighbours boil cabbage every night, or does the stairwell smell like that for other reasons?
• Do I like that Anne Perry book or is it just easy to read?
• Where are our new Station Casino offers?
• How many people have actually tried milk and Pepsi?
• Why Pepsi instead of Coke?
• What would Walt do?
• Who is going to read all of the essays?
• Why did I assign two topics?
• Can I wear jeans tomorrow?
• Have years of sleep/vitamin/moisture deprivation taken a permanent toll on my brain? Will I ever be able to think again?
• Why can't I find a YouTube commercial of the "My Little Pony" jingle where they hold the note of the last syllable for ages? I think Mike doesn't believe me.
• Do I have a mild case of lockjaw?
• Why has that mole been weird for at least 20 years?
• Did Ten Years After have any other songs?
• Did I remember to blog about that unsettling Bananarama cover of the Doobie Brothers' "Long Train Running"?
• Did The Doobie Brothers have any other songs?
• Are the clothes in the dryer dry?
• Is it worth it to make your own egg nog?
• Will I ever need a slotted spoon, other than to follow Alton Brown's egg nog recipe?
• Why did that Christmas card from Emma and her husband just fall off the television, just now, when I've done nothing but sit here?
• Was the Sybil case mostly fabricated after all?
• Did the Ouija board really work that one time?
• Did Queen Isabella lisp or is that an urban legend?
• What ever happened to Teem soda?
• Will we ever have a dining room table?
• Why did I ever have to find out what gang graffiti looks like?
• Why do I teach students who won't use a pen that's not in their gang colours?
• Is our children learning?
• Is the nerve damage causing a hump, or is that just fat?
• Will I sleep?

Comments

[Heather in PA]

hey there.
we didn't have a table for over 5 years. Husband knocked together a 'temporary' table out of plywood and 2x4s when we moved in together... 'just for a month or two' until we had the cash for a table. Then it came with us to the next apartment (a year later) where it was the 'temporary until we buy a house' table because hey, why buy a table that might not fit into our house eventually, right? I think we used that excuse for 6 years. When we bought our house in 06, we decided we had better cough up the dough and buy something already. Feels very grown up, though I do miss the days of screwing another (bigger) sheet of plywood on top of the table for extra room when we had guests. :)

I hope you get some sleep!!!

[heather in pa]

oh, yeah - and I used to drink milk and coke. We were never a pepsi family. But milk and coke reminded me a little of an ice cream soda after the ice cream had all melted. I guess I just thought it was normal because hey, Laverne liked it.